Oh gee. If you're gonna be two-faced, at least make one pretty ;)

Sunday, April 29, 2007

A lot of things had been going on. In an instant, my life just went.. poof! Gone. Gone with the wind. Gone within the limits of my wildest imaginations.

I am even doubting the fact that a so-called happy life exist. You really can't tell. For a while, it might be.. but it can drift into something you won't even dare imagine.

Okay. Peer-pressure is my problem right now. I have this friend. I admit that this friend of mine and I have been having these weirdest and strangest feelings towards each other. It's as if we're not comfortable having each one around ourselves. It just doesn't seem right. This friend and I are not in good terms rights now. Honestly speaking. It's pretty obvious. I blame myself for half of what's happening. I know I made my mistake. One of my stupidest mistakes. I tried to explain everything to her but this person doesn't even care to listen to all of it. So I just messaged her in myspace. BUT still she didn't reply. So I called her in her cellphone and we weren't able to patch things up that easily. We both need time to get over it.

I don't know if I should still make this friendship work since a lot of people think I'm better off not having her. BUT she was my first friend here. So in some way.. I don't want to lose it. After everything we've been through. The thing that kind of upsets me is the fact that she thought my explanations were crap and she's acting bossy AND bitchy at the same time. I don't know. Maybe I should evaluate and see who really are my set of good AND real friends. I don't know. I'm really confused with everything.

Anyway, enough about it.
Ha! I'm happy because I was able to talk to Mik, Pao and Cza on YM early this morning. I told them the story and everything. It was just nice talking to them and being able to express myself without even having to think of what to say in English terms. HAHA.:] Having your good set of friends watching your back is totally awesome.

*It was Laura's birthday party yesterday. I'll tell you guys about it tomorrow.:]
Bye for now.:]

♥Wis

Wednesday, April 11, 2007

I hate it when people pretend. Pretentious psycho.

They feel like they're being a goody-goody person because they're trying to be good to other people.. to the extent that they are already hurting others' feelings for the sake of making someone's day OR to reach the highest social standing possible. They are so immature. They think they are good. But they're not. Not quite. Not even close.

They think they rock. Tell you one thing though, the only thing they rock is their own socks. Haha.

Watch yourself.
Show me what you got.

♥Wis

Sunday, April 08, 2007

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I hate it. I'm not cool with it.

You see, I was ready to send my reply message for Pao then suddenly, the page started to not work. So I ended up with nothing. Since I tried to recover the message and I tried to reload the page to see if it's still there.. but it's not. Naiinis ako. Ang haba haba haba na ng reply ko Pao. As in literal na ang haba. All out pa ako sa pagsagot dun e. Sabay.. lintsaaaaaak. Nawala lahat bigla. Since sobrang frustrated na ako.. wala na ako sa mood gumawa kasi alam ko magiging sloppy and short lang. Ayoko naman ng ganun. So, susubukan kong gumawa ulit ng reply ngayong gabi.. pero kung hindi ko man magawa yun, Pao.. I'll do it tomorrow. Okay?

I'm rereading Pao's message and I'm listening to this song..

..and boogsh. Wala lang. Bigla ko lang naisip na nakakainis yung mga guys na parang.. they feel something for you tas hindi nila inaadmit. So parang.. papaano mo kaya malalaman db? And they expect you to feel the same towards them. E hello.. you didn't even know that they feel whatever they feel. Db? Ewan ko ba. I just want people to tell it to me straight.. their feelings towards me that is.

I realized one thing. I realized how unpredictable guys can be. There are times when they say they like you or maybe love you.. then the next thing you know, such feelings never existed at all. And they start to be cold. Once they knew.. some guy is trying to get in the picture with you.. instantly, they'll show up. Trying to be better. But come to think of it, no matter how hard they try.. they'll never be better. Because you already know how they do things, how they really are.. and sadly, they can't just take it back. What's done.. is done. With or without harm done.

♥Wis

Friday, April 06, 2007

After a VERY long time of not being able to post an entry.. here I am again. I want to apologize for not being able to do so because I have tons of things to do, I became sick and often times, I just got lazy to update.

This past month, a lot of things had happened. I found myself stuck in my world with my own collisions. I usually handle these by letting my feelings out through my friends and sometimes through blogging here. For one month, I was able to handle these things without my friends and without blogging. I don't know how and why. It's just somehow I feel like it's better for me to just shut it to myself than having others pity me. All I'm saying is that.. finally, I was able to cope with these things on my own. I am happy about it because it makes me feel that I'm growing and I'm becoming more mature with things. I am not a kid anymore who can be fooled by a simple mishap.

Updates: I was able to do lots of things this past month and this spring break

had our concert last March 1st
had our festival last March 7th
watched the seussical play last March 16th with James, Shelby and Melody
watched the basketball game in our school with Stephanie
watched the movie, Blades of Glory in Rio, with Melody
was able to talk to Rus over the phone
gained some more weight
hung out at Melody's house and watched two movies
was locked in a room with a dog
was able to touch a dog (I am very scared of dogs. trust me)
was humped by Bela, the dog in Melody's house. HAHA. (that was embarassing)
went to Rio with Melody, her mom, Neda, Jose, Christian and Britney then ate dinner
slept over at Stephanie's house
ate at Chipotle for the first time with Stephanie and her brother and her sister
watched a movie with Stephanie at Kentlands
went to Starbucks for three consecutive days (I'm addicted to frap again. haha)
shopped for clothes although I knew I should have shopped for shoes (weird)

So far, that's everything I can remember. I'll update some more if I can remember what else happened. I know I have to do lots of things for school this spring break but I haven't started anything yet. Too lazy to do those things. Haha. I can't wait for my summer vacation.

I also envy my friends back in the Philippines. It's already their summer and all of them are looking much more gorgeous and fab than ever. I love them.:) Dapat alam niyo yun ha. Sobrang miss ko na kayo. Kayong lahat. AS IN.

*Yung replies ko sa tags ninyo.. gagawin ko bukas. Ok? Masyado kasing marami para magawa ko ngayon e. Haha.

♥Wis