Oh gee. If you're gonna be two-faced, at least make one pretty ;)

Wednesday, January 31, 2007

Uh oh.

Fights are "in" these days.

I miss all-girls private schol.

This is ironic. When I was still studying at an exclusive for girls school, I want to study somewhere where it's mixed. Who can blame me? I've been studying in an exclusive for girls school for all of my school life. And now that I'm studying in a mixed school --meaning boys and girls (which is a first by the way).. I want to be in an all-girls. Weird, huh?

Just want to point out. One thing I really learned here, is that.. I have to stand on my own two feet. If there's something wrong, or just ain't right, I have to speak up. It's not like my old school anymore. Everything here is just different. Way different and way shocking.

Standing up on my own two feet does not necessarily mean that there's no one to back me up or say, I don't have friends. I do have friends but admit it --sometimes our friends are the ones that most likely could hurt us. I mean, come to think of it.. how could a stranger hurt you if he/she doesn't know you at all? If he/she doesn't know your weakness? And how could someone hurt you if they don't know your weakness? Right? That's pure common sense. Which reminds me of what my 6th grade teacher's favorite line.. Common sense is not always common.

I am not generalizing or making assumptions here that all friends do that. I'm just saying that in most cases, it's like that.

change topic:)
Gym class today was fun. First, we went to the dance studio for our warm-up. Guess what we did? We used and later on, we played the yoga balls. Ms Burlbaugh asked us to sit on the yoga balls and then jump, sit back and forth. I was laughing because it was so funny to see ourselves doing it --it's all the mirrors fault. Ha!:) Anyway, after a few minutes, I fell hard flat on the floor. Which by the way, made me laugh even more. Jacelyn, Jenniffer, Grace and Carly started laughing too and they were all with the "are you okay?" face. I was still laughing then, and Grace bumped my yoga ball so again, I fell. It was really funny. My face was like all red, I mean.. seriously. You have to be there to actually appreciate the hard laughs were giving. Haha. And we did more for the warm-ups. It was so fun. I pretty much liked it.

I saw the recommendation thing for the courses that I can take for next year. I will probably take the Honors English10, Honors Precalculus, Honors Biology and AP NLS. I'm not sure with the AP Statistics though. I might take Honors Chemistry too for next year but I'm just not sure.

Shoot. Report cards will be given tomorrow --i'm scared.

♥Wis

Sunday, January 21, 2007

Snow is here.:)
Ha!:) Grabe. Ang saya. Nagssnow na dito. Woohoo.:) Ailuvet, luvet!:)

Let's talk about LOVE.:D
Okay. Bear with me. I just want to talk about it.

Love. Love is blind. Love is never jealous. Blah. Blah. Blah. We all know that. Sure.

When I was younger, say like 10yrs old, people used to ask me how would I know if I am inlove with someone. I'll be like.. I'll just know it. I'll just feel the spark. And thinking back at that, I'm like.. what the hell was the spark I was talking about? "The spark" never even existed. Spark is cheesy. And I believe a lot of people are now happily inlove with someone without even feeling that imaginary spark I was talking about some years ago.

People believe in love. And with love, comes a magical feeling. When people fall, that does not necessarily mean they are inlove with that someone. It takes time to know that person and with that time, you'll know if you are inlove or not. I am a little confused because how would you actually know if you're inlove or what if it's just an infatuation or like.. you just think that he/she is too nice? There is a big difference between - love, infatuation and just being too nice. I don't know. But... but.. I still believe the part that.. you'll just know it. It just takes time.

Some people find love anywhere. Like: it has to be because it's fate or it's destiny. Or say like: my parents wants us to be together or in most cases, they just have to be together. However, some people do find love in a certain wonderland. They expect things. Things that they only see in the movies. Then they expect their boyfriend/girlfriend to do those things for them. And if they don't.. they will feel that you don't love them enough. Oh come on. Grow up. Think. Movies are so much so unrealistic.

Love is not always about being happy. Or.. say.. having the happy ending you've always dreamed of. Love is never that steady. It has never been and will never be. You can lose it in just a split second. Or maybe just with the wink of an eye. Snap! Just like that.

I am not the type of person that people can go to and talk about love. I mean.. seriously. What do I know? I know nothing about love.

So if you ask me now, what love is for me? I guess I'll have to say.. Love is not just some thing you can give to someone and I know it's not that easy. It takes a lot of things AND effort for you to actually feel that certain loving feeling.=]

♥Wis

Saturday, January 20, 2007

Happy Birthday Nina Tan!:)

Happy Birthday Nins!:) Balita ko ngayon ninyo icecelebrate ang birthday ninyong apat nila Pao, Cza at Dang ha. Tama ba? Well.. yun pagkakaintindi ko sa sinabe ni Pao e. Haha. Grabe. Naiinis ako. Kasi naman.. wala na ako e.:( Nung nandiyan pa ako, bihirang bihira lumabas ang Chicklets. Pag-alis ko, sunod-sunod alis niyo. Nakakainggit kaya.:( Pero anyway, ganun talaga. Alangan na ngang hindi na kayo lumabas diba. Imposible naman yun. Kayo pa? Haha.

Sana naging masaya birthday mo Nins.:) And sana solve na yung problem mo about ____.:) I love you Nins.:)

Gigimik ako mamaya. Well, not really gimik pero aalis ako mamaya. May date kami ni Melody. Nakakahiya na kasi e. Since December niyayaya na niya ako and until now, nangungulit pa rin siya - dito sa landline, sa phone ni mama at sa phone ko. So sabi ni mama, pagbigyan ko na daw. So pumayag na ako na ngayong araw.

*Bad Mood*:(

♥Wis

Monday, January 15, 2007

'Twas saturday and Kuya Star, Ate Chubs and I were shouting our hearts out here in the basement. We were watching the playoffs of the NFL. Shoot. Philadelphia Eagles lost to New Orleans Saints. Hated it. New Orleans Saints sucks.. bigtime. They were like.. so disgusting and their plays were so rough. Ang dadaya pa ng mga calls na tinatawag ng ref. Pasalamat sila home game sila. Tsss. Ugh. Can't get over it. Kasi naman... the Eagles deserved that win. Sila dapat ang pasok sa semis. Hindi ang Saints na yan. Oh, I bet.. the Colts will knock them hard so far down. GO COLTS! Go Peyton Manning!

My mom and my dad arrived at past 10pm . They came from Virginia. They went there to find this car. I thought they'll just check it. But no. They actually did bought it right away. They bought the new Toyota 2007 Camry XLE. It is a very nice car I might add.:)

I have a new craving.:) It is Vietnamese cuisine. Vietnamese food are so.. yummy, yummy.:)

*Tomorrow will be my Algeb test. Wish me luck. I haven't studied anything yet for that finals. Too lazy to do so. Haha.

*My cousins Joeff and Chris are so lost. I hope they find the way to wherever they want to be.

*Eirene: Nako. Sobrang hindi pa talaga ako bumibili ng chucks dahil nga sinabe mo saken na maghintay muna ako db. Naghihintay pa naman ako. Hindi pa ako bumibili. Swear.

♥Wis

Saturday, January 13, 2007

Happy Birthday Paola Carlos!:)

Paaaaaaao!!! Happy happy birthday.:) Sana naging happy ang birthday mo.:D I bet masaya ka sa lahat.:) I love you Pao.:) Dapat alam mo yan ha.:P

My first semester finals for Spanish and English are over. Thank goodness. SUPER haba. Grabe. Makashyak talaga.:))

Oh well. Excited na ako.. after ng finals, nako. Bibili talaga ako ng chucks as a reward. Kahit gamitin ko pa pera ko, okay lang. I deserve a reward. So what the hey.:)

*May game ang Philadelphia Eagles mamayang 8pm. Please support them the way I support them. Haha. Sabay may nalalaman pang ganun.:)) As if naman interesado kayo e. Ano. Pero sa mga friends kong nandito rin sa States... Eagles tayo ha!;)

*Wala akong magawa kanina so tumake nlang ako ng ilang pictures sa room ko.:) Haha. Check niyo nlang sa multiply ko.:)

*Ate Charl, I miss you a lot. A whole lot, lot. Grabe na itech.:)) You are my sunshine, my only sunshine!:)) Aiiiiiii..:)) Shoot. Ang hyper ko ngayon.:)) Sohoreh na.:))

Ok. Now, I'll stop.:D

Don't ever for a second get to think that you're irreplaceable.

♥Wis

Tuesday, January 09, 2007

SUPER Happy Birthday Cza Timtiman!:)

Grabe. Tanda mo na Cza. Haha. Sabay ganun e.:)) Hai nako. May utang ka saken. Naalala mo pa nung nag-cut tau nila Aya nung intrams tas nag-Gateway tayo.. yung date nateng tatlo? Tas ako pinagbayad ninyo ng kinain naten sa Pizza Hut kahit wala naman sa usapan naten?.. Yun. Utang mo saken yun. Actually, utang ninyo saken yun.:)) So.. hintayin niyo lang ang pagbalik ko at sisingilin ko rin kayo. Haha. You'll see.;)

Hai nako Cza. How I wish nandiyan ako ngayong birthday mo. Sa totoo lang. You are one of the sweetest girls I know. And hopefully, makita ni ano yun.:) You always make people happy dahil sa mga corny at mga sablay mong jokes.:)) I love you Czaaa!:)

♥Wis

Monday, January 08, 2007

There are times that you just hit the bottom so hard and feel so crashed..

kaboogsh. splat!

.. and you know you can't do practically anything. Right? Well.. get real. That's bull.

You can do something. It's just in the matter of finding what to do in certain circumstances.

Random stuff.

*Pssst! Watan and Magdirila clans.. GOODNESS gracious. I miss you guys so bad. You're all the bests for me.:)

*Isang malaking palaka! Nine days plang ng bagong taon, tumataba na ako. Haha.:))

*JB messaged me in friendster. It's been a while dude.:) Even though medyo hindi tayo magkasundo sa mga bagay bagay, in fairness namiss kita. And mga labas naten nila Cha nun. Rumarock. Ulitin naten yun ha.

*Mag-ssnow na bukas. Well, that's what Kuya Star told me. So I hope.. totoo nga. Excited na ako.. I will finally meet Mr. Snowman again.:))It's been years since I last saw him. I miss him.:))

*Philadelphia Eagles won last Sunday.:) I am way way way addicted to National Football League now. WAY WAY.:) Jeff Garcia is SO good. I like, I like.:)

*Exams ko na this friday hanggang next week. Wish me luck.:) Huling birit for this sem. Yey.:)

When I hit the bottom.. crash.. you're all I have.:)

♥Wis

Friday, January 05, 2007

I just want to say this. SUPER HINDI KO NA KILALA SI JOEFF.

I know, I know. It's pretty odd. I have a cousin and here I am acting as if I don't know him. Well, I know him BUT I don't know what happened to him. He is way different now. Way, way different. It's not about our differences but it sure is about what he had become. It's as if he's not the same guy I used to hang out with and actually, grow old with. Which makes me really sad AND well, betrayed. Why you might I ask? Before Joeff and I separated - him going back to Italy - we made a pact that he would strive to be better BUT that NEVER happened. He became worse.

I really feel bad because in a way, I blame myself for everything that happened to him, to us. We've been so exposed to each other that there came a time where we sort of got used to having each other. Then the fights came.. in and out. Jealousy. Hatred. Differences. You name it. All of those things got in the way that led our relationship to be on the edge. Joeff might not know this but I feel half-responsible about everything. Joeff and I might be screaming our hearts out about how we despise each other and stuff BUT we know the real connection between us - we are cousins, who can blame us.. right? And that's something were very thankful for. I should've understood him. I should've been there when he was so down and had no one. I should've been a good sister. I SHOULD HAVE. And hearing from my aunt's voice of Joeff's case now.. it made me cry and wonder so bad that maybe that would not happen if only I was there. IF ONLY. I think things would be different if that was the case. I just feel so bad of what had been done. And I know I can't do anything about it. Even though I want to do something.

*Honestly, I think I have been a good sister for Joeff. Siya lang yung hindi nakipag-cooperate. Lahat ng mga ginagawa niya, hindi alam ng lahat. Tinago ko lahat yun, kasi ayaw ko siya mapagalitan or masaktan or anything kasi pinsan ko siya e. Pero para sa kanya, wala yun. Pag kailangan niya ng money, binibigyan ko siya agad. Pag may nang-away sa kanya, and umiiyak siya, iexpect mo na lalabas ako ng bahay namin para kausapin yung umaway sa kanya. And thinking back all those things makes me wonder, what did I do wrong? Hindi pa ba enough lahat ng love na pinakita namin sa kanya nila ate?

I really miss the old Joeff - funny, sweet, thoughtful and had the best sense of humor. Now.. everything changed. And it's all because of me. Me, me, me. Selfish me.:(

I wonder who influenced Joeff to be someone he's really not. I really am.

He is not the same Joeff I used to live with.:(

Now everything did change and it's because of the crappy actions he showed that led into the stupid decision.

♥Wis

Wednesday, January 03, 2007

Happy Birthday Daaaaaaaaang!:)

Grabe. For 7 months, hindi kita nakausap. Tsk tsk. Oh well, hanggang ngayon naman NEVER pa kita nakakausap eversince umalis ako e. Haha. Anyway, sana... naging SUPER happy ang birthday mo. Kung nandiyan lang ako, may plus one ka pa sa mga gifts mo dahil sa lagi naman tayong mga chicklets ganun pag may birthday ang isa e pati yung 11 balloons. Db db? Tas yung sa lunch.. magfform tau ng circle (as usual) at lalamon tayo ng birthday cake mo.:) Haha.:)

*Yun yung namimiss ko. Imagine, sa AA.. sa isang taon.. 11 times gagawin ng barkada naten yun. Tas yung gifts na ibibigay ng bawat isa at ang balloons. Haha. Nakakamiss. Isama mo na ang mga surprises na bubulaga sayo na pinaghandaan ng ibang chicklets... Yung mafifeel mo talaga na.. wow. Ang special ko. Ang drama ko e no. Haha. Pero di nga, siryos. Haha. I know that's one thing I really miss about our group. Haaaaaai. Nakakamiss na talaga.

Anyway.. balik sa topic. SUPER HAPPY BIRTHDAY DANG. HUGHUG.:) Miss na miss na kita. Ang mga laughtrip at katakawan naten sa bawat corridor ng AA. Haha. Pati pati ang mga Eastwood takas moments naten kasama sila Mik, Shine at Cza. :) I LOVE YOU DANG.:) *dapat alam mo yan ha. Chickies for life.;)

Which reminds me, birthday na rin nila Pao at Cza at Nins.:) Grabe. SUPER BIG MONTH ito para sa Chicklets ha. Sana nandiyan ako. Grabe. SUPER miss ko na kayong lahat. As in. As in.

School Update:
SUPER hinahabol namin ang lahat. Unit Exams are given this week until Tuesday. Semester finals will start on Friday next week and ends the week after that. Tas second semester na.. I am going to have a new set of subjects and teachers. Sana kasing galing ng mga teachers ko this semester.:)

I had my untit test in Spanish earlier. I was the very first one who finished the exam. Sobrang kinakabahan ako. Kasi nadalian ako sa test. And usually, pag nadadalian ako.. the more na bumababa score ko because of carelessness. Haha. With that in mind, I checked my edline. I got 47.5 out of 50.:) I HAVE AN A!:) Yesba!:)

ALGEB CLASS: The guy that sits behind me during this class helps me a lot, a lot. Eversince. I know algebra is something that I am frustrated at. Ha. Pero totoo. Kasi parang, kahit anong gawin ko.. it does not work with me. Which gave me a conclusion that.. I HATE MATH. Which is ironic because back in my grade school days in Holy Spirit, I was given an award as the "Math Wizard". OUT OF EVERY SINGLE GIRL IN MY SCHOOL.. I WAS CHOSEN. I have no idea where that thing came from. Haha.:) Anyway... today.. it was different than usual. I HELPED HIM. Feeling ko tuloy, biglang lumipat saken ang katalinuhan niya. Haha. I am surviving honors algebra2 because of the guy that sits behind me that really takes the time to help me. I have to give him credit for that.:)

I can't wait for this week to end. Siyemperts!:)

Eeeechooooos! Hinawaan mo ako.:)) Weeeeeesssiiiiiiide!:))

You sound so overrated in not saying how YOU feel. And so you end up watching chances fade AND wondering what's real.

♥Wis

Tuesday, January 02, 2007

My 1st day is alrighty:))

Sabay ginagawa ang natural kong hand sign.:))

Kung nabasa ito nila ate, naasar or ginaya na naman ako.:))

For a first day, in fairness.. okay to. I like, I like!;)

Super tinatamad akong bumangon kaninang umaga kasi dapat hanggang ngayon, winter break pa rin namin. Tsss talaga. SUPER kulang yung day-off namin. Ni hindi nga ako ready pumasok kanina e. Kasi alam kong madami akong due homeworks ngayon at kahit gaano ako kabilis nag-cram kagabi, sadyang hindi ko natapos lahat. Good thing.. hindi nagcheck teachers ko. Sobrang safe e.:) Yesba!:)

Meron na agad akong SPANISH unit exam BUKAS.

Super walang patawad. Next week naman, finals ko na for this semester. Lahat nga ng teachers ko kanina namimigay na ng review packet para sa subject nila e. At yung packet na yun.. isa pang pasaway. SOBRANG HABA AT MAKAPAL. Mabebrain damage ata ako e. Graaaaaaaaabe. Pffffffffffft.

*Aral mode. Buhbye.

Zzzzzzzzzzzz.. GONE.

So long for yesterday, and so long too for the happy ending I hoped for.

♥Wis

Monday, January 01, 2007

I blame YOU for everything.

Enough said.

Sabi nga ni Paul sa kanyang status sa YM.. stupid new year. Tama siya. Stupid talaga. Arrgh.

Everything, as in every single thing started on the wrong foot.

Sigh.

New Year = New Addiction:))

The subject is totally true for me. As in. It's only the first day of '07, and yet I already have my new "addictions" for this year.:) *clap, clap

Here goes the list of my new loves<3

Chucks!:) dahil kay Eirene to. tinanong niya ako kung ano gusto ko na gift na ibibigay ng someone saken. tas dumating sa point na napag-usapan namin ang chucks. At ngayon, addict na addict na ako. Non-stop na ang aking pagcheck ng mga styles sa converse na site. Haha. Ailuvet!:) And yes, of course, I love you too Eirene:) *sabay grin
Skittles Nagccram ako sa homeworks ko kanina, dahil bukas may pasok na ako at non-stop rin ang pagkain ko ng skittles. Specifically yung wild berry na flavor. I like, I like!;)
My new phone Hindi ako mapakali at every now and then talagang kinakalikot ko phone ko. Sorry nlang minsan Rus kung hindi ko nasasagot calls mo. Ibig sabihin nun, nandito ako sa basement at ang phone ko.. ay nandoon sa room ko. Ok?
My starbucks gift card Oh my gulaaaaaaay! Starbucks is definitely one of my weakness. Kung super kilala mo ako, dapat alam mo yan.:) Thanks for the gift card, Priscilla.:) Sana laging Christmas para lagi akong may Starbucks gift card. Haha. My mocha frappucino with peppermint.. my definite love!♥

Okay. So there goes my list. And to think, this is only the very first day of this year. Hmmmm.. I wonder what goes next in my list.:)

I am pretty disappointed today. Everything just doesn't seem right. It's ~~just~~ that. Ugggggh. I hope the rest of this year won't be as hard.

BUT..

In a way, I am pretty happy because I was able to talk to a lot of people. Including people I was so close with, back in grade school... Awwwww... Carol!:) And and.. MORE updates from my chickies. And and.. ang Laya!:) Sorry hindi ako nakatulong sa project thing mo. Masyadong malalim ang topic. Hindi ko na-carry. Haha.

*sayang hindi nakapag-online si Eirene.

*PLUG: Inupdate ko na ulit yung multiply ko. Inupload ko na yung mga Europe pictures. So check niyo nlang.

Anyway.. so there. Yang mga yan lang naman ang nangyari sa aking new year's day.

O siya, siya. Dinner na kami. At bukas.. may pasok na ako. Tsssss. Kami na ang pinaka-maagang pumasok sa taong ito. I swear.

SPREAD THE LOVE THIS '07, YOU FOOL.:))

♥Wis