Oh gee. If you're gonna be two-faced, at least make one pretty ;)

Monday, August 14, 2006

I can go on and on and on blabbing the things that I did and the places I have been when I was in Pennsylvania but I believe there is a more serious thing to share than those things.

Oh Crap! Snap, snap.

I have a friend. A friend whom I don't know in person but I can truly say that I trust her. I can share a lot of things with her. Super close ko na sa kanya kasi nga ang daming bagay na napapag-usapan namin. And that friend of mine is Eirene.

Okay, before I say anything. I just want to let you know, you guys that Eirene has nothing to do with my post. In fact hindi rin niya alam na magpopost ako ng ganito. Pero as far as I can see. It's just TOO much. The things I will and would have to say here are ALL MY OPINION. So beat it. And just read what I have to say. I know I AM NOT IN THE RIGHT PLACE TO REACT OR TO BE CONCERNED at any point of your fight/misunderstanding. But hey, she is also my friend. And it saddens me to know that she is feeling the way she feels right now.

First thing's first. FAMILY. I know how Eirene feel. There is this feeling of rejection in one way or another. I myself is feeling that way.. MOST of the time. And it doesn't mean na pag binilhan ka ng pasalubong from Hong Kong hindi ka na hate. Pero hindi ko rin sinasabe na hate talaga siya ng parents niya.. ang sinasabe ko lang nararamdaman niya yung rejection. At yung feeling of rejection na yun yung dahilang kung bakit naifeel niya na hate siya ng mga parents niya. Yun din yung rason kung bakit nasasabi niya na hate niya ang family niya. Pero hindi naman ibig sabihin nun dinidespise na niya yung pamilya niya e.

FRIENDS. Most of the time we chat.. friends ang pinag-uusapan. Friends are too important to lose. Totoo. Mahirap maka-away yung mga taong akala mo close mo tas bigla kang tatalikuran. Bigla kang iiwan. Alam ko kasi naramdaman ko na rin yun. Again, the feeling of rejection. (eirene, sasabihin ko ung napag-usapan nten about friends ha? wag kang magulat) Nafeel niya na tinatalikuran na siya ng mga super close friends niya. Yung mga tao na inaasahan niya sa lahat. Kasi merong bagong dumating. Naramdaman niya na pinalit niyo siya sa kanya.

Ang laki ng impact ng friends. Kung sira-sira.. paano magbuibuild up ung friendship? Ang hirap din nun sa part niya kasi nasanay siya na meron siyang mga friends na maaasahan through everything tas biglang may dumating. PERO HINDI KO SINASABE NA MALI NA MERONG BAGONG DUMATING OR NA MERONG PUMALIT. Kasi kailangan or dapat naman maging open sa lahat e. Kung happy kayo na kasama siya and kung komportable kayo sa kanya.. Bakit hindi, db? Sinasabe ko lang na yun ung naramdaman niya.

PERFECTION. Ang hirap maging perfect. Una, kasi wala namang taong perpekto. Pangalawa, iba iba ang "nature" ng pagiging perfect. Kasi siyempre, iba iba yung tastes and gusto nten. And para sa bawat isa.. Ang pagiging perfect yun parang halos kapareho nung kanila.

You cannot change people. Because change is their choice not yours. They can change. Sure. But not because you want them to change and be EXACTLY like you want them to. Hindi naman kasi robot ang tao e. We have feelings and emotions. Yun ang pinagkaiba ng robot sa atin. Sa situation na to, YOU DON'T KNOW HOW SHE FEELS. Kasi hindi ninyo nararamdaman yung pinagdadaanan niya ngaun. Na masasabi kong napagdaanan ko na.. (1) Yung makakita ng negative scribbles sa board. (2) Yung pinaparinggan. (3) Yung ginagawang miserable ang school life. (4) Yung naiiwan and natatalikuran ng mga kaibigan.

Let's say.. hindi ninyo alam na ganun na pala un nararamdaman niya.. Sana kinonsider ninyo na kausapin siya, na iconfront siya sa mga bagay na nararamdaman niya. But clearly, that doesn't give you the right to say whatever negative you say.

BACKSTABBING. In what way do you think she is backstabbing you? By posting entries that you are definitely guilty of? Well, THAT is HER OPININON about it. Dapat kinoconsider niyo rin yun. You might think na okay tong tao na to.. pero para sayo un. Do you think LAHAT ng tao nag-aagree sa gusto mo? Bakit hindi mo naisip na some people including her may not like the way the new-comer/ whoever acts? HINDI mo alam? It's because YOU LACK COMMUNICATION. YOU are AFRAID to be IN THE OPEN.

Communication is the key or the step for every relationship. Because relationships are for two or more people. Not only you, not just yourself. You benefit from each other.

Why backstabb anyway? When you can say it right infront of her face. Mas okay nga un e. At least naging straight ka sa tao. Mas okay un. Kaysa sa iba mo pa sinasabe na nakaka-impluwensiya sa pag-iisip nila dun sa taong binackstabb mo sa kanya.

RESPECT. Nakaninong blog ka nagpunta? Sa kanya. She has her own opinions that may not be the same as yours so learn to respect it. You might be mad as hell if someone posted negative stuff in your blog. And every single person you used to trust just starts putting up heavy negative words on you. Tell me. How would you feel if you put your shoes in that exact situation? How would you be able to survive without the true friends you used to have? Mahirap db? Yan yung nafifeel niya ngaun. EVERYTHING IS BREAKING APART. AND SHE IS HAVING A VERY HARD TIME TO FOCUS IN EVERY THING SHE WANTS TO DO. IT'S BECAUSE OF THE NEGATIVITY YOU DROPPED UNTO HER.

I am not taking sides here. I don't belong to any side. I don't know how your fight started. And I don't want to be a part of it. I just thought that you should know these things. Real and true friends know what their friends feel without it being said.

Also, in my opinion, I don't think that those negativity you are flooding in her blog is an excellent idea. Kasi para sken.. pinag-kakaisahan niyo siya. Tsaka. Yung problems na hinaharap niyo. Sa inyo lang. Hindi niyo naman kailangang ipost pa sa tagboard niya na nakikita ng LAHAT e. Hindi maganda yun para sa inyo. Kasi kayo yung lumalabas na "mean". Dahil sa mga masasakit na salita na binibitiw niyo sa kanya.

Stop this freaking shit negativity. It won't do you no good. Mas magiging miserable ka lang sa mga bagay bagay. NA GINAGAWA NIYO SA KANYA SA BAWAT NEGATIVE NA SINASABI NIYO.

Grow up. Hindi na kayo bata to do stuff like that. It is so IMMATURE. Sorry for the term but that's what I THINK.

And pag-usapan niyo nlang in private. I mean, sa school. Sa guidance councilor niyo mag-counselling kayo. Good help yun. You might save the good friendship you used to have. I'm sure you will. ALWAYS BE OPEN.

TAKE NOTE.
Hindi ako nakikigulo sa inyo. I mean, all of you and even Eirene has your own part of the story. And I don't know what it is. Kasi you have YOUR OWN SIDE. And it's just right to RESPECT each and everyone's side. LET'S BE FAIR AND SQUARE.

Relaaaaaaaaaaks. Hindi ako nanghihimasok. Kaya lang.. ang sobra na nung burden e. Ang hirap kaya nun. To go to school and to experience the same things over and over again. Sobrang hirap nun. Hindi ako nakiki-side.

I'm just saying.. GIVE THE RESPECT. Respect for whatever thing Eirene might say or have to say. Kasi hindi naman laging pareho kayo ng opinion e. Importante na maging open sa side ng iba hindi yung sa sarili lang. Sure. Minsan mag-didisagree ka sa mga opinion nila. Pero importante pa ring makinig ka. Napaka self-centered mo naman kung sarili mo lang and ung for your OWN good mo lang yung iniisip mo. THINK OF OTHERS AS WELL.

SHOUTouts.
Sorry for the people I might have hurt or offended with whatever I say. Pero I just want to speak up for myself and for my friend.

Try-outs ko na bukas for volleyball varsity. Gumudluck nlang sken. Ang aga pa naman. So mejo nakakatamad gumising para dun. Haha.

Don't hate me for whatever I say. Hate me because you know you don't have the guts to spill, meaning to say the words that you want and you know YOU SHOULD say.

♥Wis