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Sunday, August 14, 2005

a lot of things had happened to me for the past few weeks. a lot of moments which aren't that good and of course, as well as those which i will treasure most in my life.

last week, it was my grandma's birthday so we went to my grandma's place. of course it's a given that a lot of my relatives were there. i saw some of my cousins which i don't regularly or occassionally see. yeah, we did a lot of catching up to do in our lives so we sort of bonded in one place and listened to all our stories, one by one. we had mass which is offered to my grandpa. my grandpa is somehow okay now. he is getting fatter, again. hope that's a good sign that he'll be healthy again. i was touched when my grandma told me that she's vey thankful for having us, her grandchildren, around. she even told me that she wouldn't know what to do if even us will turn our back at her. then teardrops started falling from her watery eyes.. for a second, i thought. why would grandma say something about turning back? i mean, nobody in our family had ever turned their back at her. then it came up to me that maybe what she was taliking about was the people whom she considered her friends and yet didn't have the time to visit her even for a while.

last friday, i had a new friend. her name is lhen. she was aiko's friend and she was suppose to sleep over at aiko's house. but then i invited aiko to sleep over at our house and so lhen was with her. she was quite fun to be with. the three of us bonded together. we did a lot of crazy things in my room. haha. tas stories, stories habang kumakain ng midnight snack. then, ghost hunt sa buong house. haha. we slept at 1'30 am. it was so fun.. sana maulit. iimbitahin ko kayo ulit. don't worry.. haha.

for a time, i felt rejection. [i guess, everyone had experienced that] rejected by my friends and my cousin, joeff. honestly, it quite bit me. then i realized that i shouldn't focus on the things that would eventually hurt me in the end. so, i stopped bothering myself from contradicting and explaining every single detail about the wrong speculations they tell about me. yeah, it hurts. that's why we end up wanting, wanting to ran away from it all. but you know what? it even hurts thrice as hard if we walk away from it and eventually put ourselves back to where they left us hanging. logically, if we turn our back at it there's these feeling na.. what if pag balik ko ganito pa rin and all.. the feeling of fear. fear in what most people don't want to feel which is getting rejected by their peers. so, on i went. i was able to face them straight as if not getting hurt. though deep inside it hurts a lot.. eventually, we were able to make those things out and i'm happy to say that i'm back with the people who helped me to be me even things get quite rough.

i don't know what happened, but i'm sure i like it. everything's changed. i have learned to love the life i have even it's quite shaky. i'm studying thrice as hard compared to before [it's because of our exams pero sana tuloy, tuloy na] my ate and some of my cousins told me i'm getting matured [i don't know where that thought came from]i have learned not to be too dependent on my friends and others. in other words, i have learned to trust and to depend on the choices i make even more. i depend on me.

*learn to live, enjoy and love your life.. you'll never know what may happen next.:D*

♥Wis

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Luisa Angela Baua. Wis.October 10. HS student. Youngest of three. Chicklet.

I WANT TO.. be loved and to travel the whole world.

ACHIEVED.. pretty much a lot of things and learned from every mistake I did.

GREATEST FEAR.. to be alone.

I BELIEVE THE FACT.. that it takes one to know one.

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