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Saturday, August 20, 2005

CHICKLETS' OVERNIGHT. at last, we finally arrived and invaded [the word.. haha] anj's house after stopping a lot of times at different shops. haha. we did a lot of things.. watched horror movie of course with matching freshly baked pizza pandesal, ate dinner, played the soccer game in the table thing [basta ung parang barbecue thing table] shared lots of stories and gossips [oh wait, what gossips were those again? haha] played cards and slept for a while. haha. ang saya! sana maulit.. kahit matagal pa, basta maulit lang.. at sana sa uulitin, complete na taung lahat.. i really would want that to happen. tas lahat tayo masaya na parang wala problema. how i wish.. sana someday ganun nga mangyari..

i arrived home at 12'30, lunchtime. the very first thing i did was to text her to clear things up. sad to say, no matter how hard i explain still nothing happened. it was still the same thing. i guess i can't blame her for that if she really think or feel i'm pathetic, bitch and a liar. fine.. i mean, i can't change that.. well, i tried to pero wala pa rin nangyari. ang mahirap kasi she only stands for what she thinks. ung nde na niya gustong intindihin yung side namin. and why does she have to make things more complicated? sinabe na nga naming hindi namin siya pinagtutulungan which was true pero ayaw pa rin niya maniwala. she still keeps on insisting na pinagkakaisahan talaga namin siya. she changed, bigtime. sobra. masakit tanggapin ung pagbabago niya eh. ung mga masasakit na salita na binitiwan niya sakin [i printed it all, sobrang nakakaiyak lang siya basahin].. considering she's one of my very close friend in the group. nakakagulat. ang mas nakakagulat pa dun nung nalaman ko na ako ung rason kung bat siya nagbago at naging ganun.

nung nalaman ko yung reasons kung bakit ako ung nakapagpabago sa kanya.. wala na kong magawa.. i felt so helpless and i cried. alam niya un. and you know what? all she said was, "NOW YOU KNOW WHAT IT FEELS LIKE". so parang, napapaisip ako.. what should i do para mabalik ko lahat un? nde pa ba enough ung ipilit ko sarili ko sa kanya nung times na na-feel ko na napapalayo na siya sakin? nde pa ba enough ang sorry? hindi ko na alam. i'm way out of my league.

you're wrong. nobody was happy when you texted us that you're leaving the group. whether you believe me or not, lahat kami nalungkot when you said that. kahit nga nung sinabe nio na nde kayo makakapunta sa overnight or kahit sa hapon lang kila anj, malungkot na kami eh. we just don't know where you guys got that idea. kasi sobrang opposite eh. alam niyo ba na mangiyakngiyak na si mik dahil sa sinabe niyo na yun? kasi ayaw namin kayo mawala. wala kaming gustong mawala sa group. chaka ung paparty thing dahil aalis na kayo. ano ba naman. san niyo ba nakuha lahat ng yun?

no matter how hard i or we explain, wala pa rin talaga. she doesn't want to listen to me, to us. she only stands for what she thinks and that's the only thing that matters or is important for her. pag nagtry ka mag-explain, at nde un ung sa side niya, magiging sarcastic siya and all. if she would only try to listen and understand our side, this wouldn't happen. this wouldn't be too complicated for us to solve. if only.. she would listen to us TOO..

♥Wis

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Luisa Angela Baua. Wis.October 10. HS student. Youngest of three. Chicklet.

I WANT TO.. be loved and to travel the whole world.

ACHIEVED.. pretty much a lot of things and learned from every mistake I did.

GREATEST FEAR.. to be alone.

I BELIEVE THE FACT.. that it takes one to know one.

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