Oh gee. If you're gonna be two-faced, at least make one pretty ;)

Friday, February 22, 2008

I'm so frustrated. And I really don't know what the reason is. :(

I'm just in one of those moods wherein something's really bothering me, but I can't put my finger on it. :R

Hmmmn. Methinks i'm too lazy. And I hate me for it.

I'm failing school. BOO.

I gotta work my ass off to pull my grades up. Graaaah. :((

No time, no time, to be idle.

You can't lose something you never had.

♥Wis

Monday, August 13, 2007

If there's one thing I regret the most.. that would be not having enough time to catch up with my friends back in the Philippines. Sure, there are times where I have all the time in the world to just sit infront of the computer and chat with them but in most cases, I don't. I feel bad for not being there physically for them in their time of need. And yes, I blame myself for sort of shutting myself to them. It's been more than a year since I last saw them and I know they've sort of moved on. I know they've made new friends which made me think that they don't need me anymore since they have new ones. But come to think of it, they didn't change a bit towards me. I mean, they're still there. I was the one pushing myself away.

Maybe I was scared. I was so scared of losing my friends whom I relied on for so long.

Most people say that your friends in highschool are your real true friends. I don't know about that. All I know is.. you can't really tell by just basing it on that. Your real friends are the ones that are there for you in your rise and your fall, no matter what happens. In my own experience, I found some of my real friends long before highschool. So you see, you don't really need highschool to find who your real friends are. You just have to look around to see who those people are.

I don't need a lot of friends. I just need good ones. Given that, it doesn't mean that I'm picky on who to be friends with. I'm just saying that I don't need friends for the sake of just saying we're friends or like he/she knows me. I need friends whom I can rely on, who are real and are true to themselves and to others as well.

I'm happy with my friends. They're the bests.=)
You guys are wicked awesome!;)

♥Wis

Wednesday, July 18, 2007

It was already 2 in the morning and I still find myself wide awake.

I called Rus and we talked for half an hour or maybe even more. It felt good to talk to her again. I missed her. A LOT. I missed the way we converse with each other. I guess I just miss everything about her, really. Anyway, we talked about stuff and boys and yes, we still laugh and giggle every now and then. We were exchanging our 'moments' (haha Rus!) I really did felt good that I was able to talk to her after a long time. It was great. I love you Rus. (you should know that by now)

To my dear Paola: I miss you. I hope everything went well. And I hope your doctor is.. hot because I know you're hoping for that. Hahahahaha. Papa ba ito. Ayun naman! Hahahahaha. Wag ka na magdiet ha. We love you just the way you are.;) Ayun naman! I love you Pao. Get well soon.

♥Wis

Monday, July 16, 2007

It takes a lot of effort to be in a relationship with a special someone or to your own group of friends. Relationships doesn't always work according to plan. As much as possible you want it smooth sailing.. but let's face it. Most relationships doesn't work that way. As a matter of fact, most relationships go through a lot of rocky patches. Relationships are hard to earn if you're the type of person who shuts his/her own self to everyone. It's not a one-way ticket to your own so-called "wonderland". It takes at least two for it to work.

I hate seeing two people who are very much inlove at the brink of falling far away apart because of a stupid misunderstanding. It just doesn't make sense to me.

Two people inlove should be together.

♥Wis

Friday, June 01, 2007

Ky's visit
Okay. It's almost a month now since I last saw Ky. (aaaaw. tear) Yeap. Ky and I met up last May 10. It was so much fun. Ky, her parents and her brother came over here at our house at like past 10pm of that day. As soon as she arrived, we headed down the basement and called Rus. We talked to Rus until 2am of the next day. And guess what? Rus had to wake up early because she had school that morning (well, I do too.. but since Ky's here.. I don't have to be at school) So anyway. Rus, Ky and I talked about things. Tons of things we need to catch up about each other and yes, boys.:)) Hindi pwedeng hindi pag-usapan yun e. Haha. Ky and I were exchanging stories until 4:30am. Maaan was I exhausted. My eyes were already blinking when Ky was still telling a story. She even tapped me and told me.. "Hoy Wis! Gumising ka. Nagkukuwento pa ako." Haha. I can't forget that. Pero sobrang.. hindi ko na talaga kaya so I eventually gave up. The following morning, Ky and I woke up at 9am. And siyempre, before they left. Photoshoots took place from the different corners of our house. Well not really, just the living room. Haha. That was funny. Haha. So after that.. off they went. They headed to Baltimore for the aquarium and after that, we were to meet up again at this HUGE outlet store in Arundel County. Mama and I arrived at the Arundel Mills at 1pm. We went around and ended up buying new clothes from H&M and new pair of shoes for me. Then Ky and I met up again at maybe 2:30pm. We went around together. We went inside every single store possible and we were laughing our heads off because there were just clearly unfashionable sense of style in most stores. Not to mention those stripper thick glass heels. Haha. It was fun. It was great having Ky around. Thank God. After one year. Finally, we were able to meet up again. Joy:)

Pirates of the Carribean: At worlds end
Elizabeth, Katherine, Kelsey, Lauren and I watched Pirates 3 on its premiere night. It was madness. A lot of people are lining up and are dressed in these pirates costumes. Good thing we were so ahead of them since we reserved our tickets a week before. We didn't have the best seats in the movie house but I still had a blast. Kelsey and I sat next to each other and we love seeing Lauren's reactions to every parts of the movie. It was pretty interesting. Haha. Right, Kelsey? Even though our tickets were so expensive since its the premiere opening night I would very much say it was so worth it. After the 3 hour movie, we ate at this Italian restaurant. It was such a lovely evening and no one can spoil it for us 5 girls.:)

Hang-out
Melody came to my house early in the morning. She arrived at 8am. We watched a whole lot of movies. We started at 8:30am and ended up at 3:30pm. We ate smores and it was so funny because we almost burned the house down. Haha. It was Melody's fault. It was really funny we were laughing our butts off. Haha. It was a fun day for us two.

♥Wis

Sunday, April 29, 2007

A lot of things had been going on. In an instant, my life just went.. poof! Gone. Gone with the wind. Gone within the limits of my wildest imaginations.

I am even doubting the fact that a so-called happy life exist. You really can't tell. For a while, it might be.. but it can drift into something you won't even dare imagine.

Okay. Peer-pressure is my problem right now. I have this friend. I admit that this friend of mine and I have been having these weirdest and strangest feelings towards each other. It's as if we're not comfortable having each one around ourselves. It just doesn't seem right. This friend and I are not in good terms rights now. Honestly speaking. It's pretty obvious. I blame myself for half of what's happening. I know I made my mistake. One of my stupidest mistakes. I tried to explain everything to her but this person doesn't even care to listen to all of it. So I just messaged her in myspace. BUT still she didn't reply. So I called her in her cellphone and we weren't able to patch things up that easily. We both need time to get over it.

I don't know if I should still make this friendship work since a lot of people think I'm better off not having her. BUT she was my first friend here. So in some way.. I don't want to lose it. After everything we've been through. The thing that kind of upsets me is the fact that she thought my explanations were crap and she's acting bossy AND bitchy at the same time. I don't know. Maybe I should evaluate and see who really are my set of good AND real friends. I don't know. I'm really confused with everything.

Anyway, enough about it.
Ha! I'm happy because I was able to talk to Mik, Pao and Cza on YM early this morning. I told them the story and everything. It was just nice talking to them and being able to express myself without even having to think of what to say in English terms. HAHA.:] Having your good set of friends watching your back is totally awesome.

*It was Laura's birthday party yesterday. I'll tell you guys about it tomorrow.:]
Bye for now.:]

♥Wis

Wednesday, April 11, 2007

I hate it when people pretend. Pretentious psycho.

They feel like they're being a goody-goody person because they're trying to be good to other people.. to the extent that they are already hurting others' feelings for the sake of making someone's day OR to reach the highest social standing possible. They are so immature. They think they are good. But they're not. Not quite. Not even close.

They think they rock. Tell you one thing though, the only thing they rock is their own socks. Haha.

Watch yourself.
Show me what you got.

♥Wis

Sunday, April 08, 2007

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I hate it. I'm not cool with it.

You see, I was ready to send my reply message for Pao then suddenly, the page started to not work. So I ended up with nothing. Since I tried to recover the message and I tried to reload the page to see if it's still there.. but it's not. Naiinis ako. Ang haba haba haba na ng reply ko Pao. As in literal na ang haba. All out pa ako sa pagsagot dun e. Sabay.. lintsaaaaaak. Nawala lahat bigla. Since sobrang frustrated na ako.. wala na ako sa mood gumawa kasi alam ko magiging sloppy and short lang. Ayoko naman ng ganun. So, susubukan kong gumawa ulit ng reply ngayong gabi.. pero kung hindi ko man magawa yun, Pao.. I'll do it tomorrow. Okay?

I'm rereading Pao's message and I'm listening to this song..

..and boogsh. Wala lang. Bigla ko lang naisip na nakakainis yung mga guys na parang.. they feel something for you tas hindi nila inaadmit. So parang.. papaano mo kaya malalaman db? And they expect you to feel the same towards them. E hello.. you didn't even know that they feel whatever they feel. Db? Ewan ko ba. I just want people to tell it to me straight.. their feelings towards me that is.

I realized one thing. I realized how unpredictable guys can be. There are times when they say they like you or maybe love you.. then the next thing you know, such feelings never existed at all. And they start to be cold. Once they knew.. some guy is trying to get in the picture with you.. instantly, they'll show up. Trying to be better. But come to think of it, no matter how hard they try.. they'll never be better. Because you already know how they do things, how they really are.. and sadly, they can't just take it back. What's done.. is done. With or without harm done.

♥Wis