Oh gee. If you're gonna be two-faced, at least make one pretty ;)

Sunday, October 29, 2006

Ky, Happy happy birthday.:)

Sayang wala na ako diyan. Wala na ang one big time treat nateng apat nila Mik at Rus. Ha. Hopefully, naging super okay ang birthday mo this year. Wishing you all the bests in life. Kahit na medyo alam ko naman na nasa sayo na ang mga "bests in life" na yun. :)

Updates

A lot of things had happened since the last time I posted an entry. Those things are actually pretty fun and at the same time, a little disappointing in some ways. But I don't want to blab about all of those things anyway.

I am a sucker for understanding people when it comes to pathetic things. I mean, I do get them. It's just that I don't get the fact why they are being to out in the open and blab things you don't even want to know. What's even worse is that they go to every single detail. I mean common. Who gives shit about it anyway? Right? All I could do is give a smile and say... "Um, yeah." Ha.:)

Everything here seems to be pretty smooth. So far, so good. I never really thought it would be this way. At first I thought this whole thing will be a madness for me. But no. It's actually okay. Okay in a sense that it's not really fun. But it's okay. It's just normal. For only 5 months, of being here.. it is actually good I had to admit.:) So you guys, need NOT to worry about me.:)

I am so happy that I am being able to catch up with my friends in a lot of ways-friendster, myspace, emails and even YM.:) It feels good that I know I do have a lot of back-ups back in the Philippines. So when I come back home, I know I'll be coming back for more.... more people, more fun and hell lot more of gimiks!;)

Trick or Treat?

Trick or treat is fast approaching. I am thinking whether I'll be a fairy or a lady bug. You guys, lady bug is really cool. It'll make me look so much younger. And by means of much younger... I mean, really young... like a little girl who can't even cross the street. Haha.

Daylight Saving Time

Today is the start of the daylight saving time. It's actually confusing.. I mean really. For those of you who doesn't know about it. It makes our time an hour later than usual. Which means to say that... here in the East Coast.. we'll be 13 hours delayed compared to the usual 12 hours delayed from the time back in the Philippines. Confusing? I'll give you an example. Let's say, it's 8am (wednesday) in the Philippines.. our time here will be.. 7pm (tuesday) Get it? Still confusing? I told you so.:) Ha.:) This'll last until next year, the spring season.

Anyway, have to go. I'll answer your tags later or maybe tomorrow.:)

♥Wis

Thursday, October 19, 2006

Happy Birthday, love. ;)

Yes, LOVE nga. It is Rus' birthday today. Happy Birthday girlaloo! :)

Ruuuuus! This will be what the second year na magbibirthday ka na wala ako personally to celebrate it with you. :( But still, remember.. I AM ALWAYS with you naman emotionally. Naaaks! ;) Thank you for being such a nice friend. We've been through a lot of things and yet, tignan mo ang strong pa rin ng friendship nten considering all the things that had happened. And un nga, yung nagkahiwalay tayo. :( Oh well, basta. YOU CAN ALWAYS COUNT ON ME. Just call, text or email me if you need me. Ok ok? I wish you more birthdays to come and more.. kakikayan-ish from you to surprise me and the other people around you who really cares. :) I love you lots, Rus. :) HUG. Ingat sa boys. *ahem, ahem. UPDATE! :)

Mga replies ko sa tags niyo: (FINALLY. i know, i know. SORRY NA)

Eirene: Nakapag-usap na kayo ng best friend mo? Mabuti naman. Okay yan no. Just keep the ways of communications open. ALWAYS. :) Aling greatest fear ko? Yung to be alone ba.. oo no. Sinabe mo pa. Nakakatakot talaga yung mag-isa lang. And sadly, parang ganun nangyayari ngayon sken dito. ALTHOUGH, MERON naman akong friends. Pero still, iba yung mga friends ko na nakasama ko na habang nagma-mature ako. Gets? Kasi mas kilala nila ako. So ayun. Oo no. Astig talaga ang group namin. Siyempre, kasama ako dun. Ahahaha. Pero seriously, okay group namin. (Nababasa niyo ba Chicklets? OKAY GROUP NATEN) Okay lang kahit na hindi mo ako nabati on-time no. At least nabati mo ako. Yung ung importante. Db db? Thank you sa bait ha. Naapreciate ko yun. :)

Rus: Akala ko ba tatawag ka, iha? Haaay nako. Naghintay-hintay ako ng tawag mo, wala naman. Kailan mo ako i-uupdate sa nanagyari sa iyo at sa date mo ha? Aba. SPILL naman. I've read your blog pero siyempre, mas gusto ko yung ikuwento mo sken. Kasi iba pag sayo mismo nanggaling. Rus.. ako active sa school ko? Hindi nga e. Sa acad, siguro. Pero sa iba, hindi naman e. Magkakaroon ka rin ng AP classes no. Just wait. :) Rus, buong Quince Orchard HS, pinag-take ng PSAT. In preparation daw for SATs. What the fudge nga e. Pero in fairness, medyo madali siya. Hindi siya yung mabigat na test na inexpect ko. Yepyep, 2 honors classes ko.

Paola: Nasa CAI ka na naman? Napapadalas na iyan iha ha. Tsk tsk. Haha. I miss you too Pao. SOBRANG miss.

Michi: Ikaw pa. Kailan ba magiging boring or kailan ba lumipas ang birthday mo na hindi talaga "nacecelebrate"? Never naman e. Kasi YOU ARE SO SPECIAL. Special in a good way ha. :) Yung birthday ko naman, buong day ko.. parang ordinary school day lang.. FLAT. Walang kahit ano. Pero okay na rin kasi all the people who are close to me, and the people na hindi ko na masyado napapansin na alam ang birthday ko.. ay binati ako. So okay na rin. IT'S THE THOUGHT THAT COUNTS nga db? :) Wala akong makaka-date sa Homecoming Dance. Sure na ako dun. Hehe. Mik, wag mo na akong iimagine na nagsosoccer. Matatawa ka lang. Haha. Oo nga e, nakakamiss. Dito naman hindi uso ang squad, squad. Laging pinapalitan ung team mates ko. At ang PE namin, everyday. San ka pa? Sige ba, bibigyan kita ng picture ko na suot ang lady bug costume ko na pang-trick or treat ng mabawasan ang mga bugs niyo sa bahay. Haha. :)

Cza: Aba. Nagsalita ka ha. Sino kaya mas matanda sa ating dalawa aber? Ikaw kaya. January mo e. First na first sa buong year. Haha. :) Miss na miss na kita. Nako. Yung kakulitan mo, yung ka-cornihan mo madalas, yung pagka-sweet mo.. miss na miss ko na lahat ng yun. :) Kasi yun ang mga qualities na "classic Czaboiiiii". I love you Cza! :)

Noemi: Noeeeems! Thank you sa bati. :) Talaga favorite seatmate mo ako? Naks naman. :) I am doing okay. NOT well NOR GOOD. Just OKAY. Ikaw? Miss na rin kita ano.

Anj: Aaaaaaaaawwww.. Namiss ko na yun. Yung nadadagdagan ng bebeh yung mga names nten. Lalo na ung akin. Haha. Thanks sa bati, Anj. :) Miss na kita. Hindi nga, seryoso. Miss na kita. I love you, Anj. :)

Dang and Caris: Thank you sa bati niyo sken. :) Miss ko na kayo. Ikaw Caris, kasi nakakapag-open ako sayo about.. alam mo na.. stuff na tayong 2 lang nakakagets (multi-purpose building "open" moments) Ikaw Dang, kasi masaya ka kasama. Kahit na minsan parang ang tahimik mo.. pero alam ko na madami ka namang masasabi. :) I love you both. :)

Nins: Thanks sa bati Nins. :) Alam ko kung bakit beerday. Kasi db octoberfest na. Tama naman db? Haha. Kung mali.. Oh well... Haha. :) Miss na miss na rin kita. Nako. Sobra. :) I love you Nins. :)

Isay: It's never too late. :) Ang importante, hindi monakalimutan at nagreet mo ako. :) Thank you sa bati ha. I love you too, Isay. Miss na kita. SUPER. Hindi na kasi kita nakasama ulit before I left for States e. Sayang. Oh well, babawiin nten un SOMEDAY. :)

♥Wis

Tuesday, October 17, 2006

Speak up.

PEOPLE OFTEN MISUNDERSTAND ME.

And by people, I meant the people who are close to me like my relatives and my "special friend/s". It's safe to say that I'm nice/good. I have been one. Even ask people who really know me. I let everything pass as long as it doesn't have anything to do with me. I often keep my mouth shut. However, there are times when I feel I HAVE TO talk.. and, and I just say everything. I AM FRANK. I say everything I want to say and I don't care if it hurts you bad. I just want you to know, what you are to me. If you've been bad, I say it. If you've been nice, or maybe TOO nice, I complement it. You ask for my opinion and I give my HONEST opinions.

I am not saying that someone is messing up with me. I just realized it. Of how people tend to listen and show their empathy but deep down.. they just don't get you. AT ALL.

I am in the brink of falling apart.

I am so fridggin on the edge of it.

I don't know anyone I can share my problems with. I don't even know if there are people who are willing to listen to what I have to say. Maybe for them it's useless, pathetic and immature. They might even find me so dramatic that I am pouring my heart out in my blog. Blogging help me in some way to release the tension and the negativity that I feel inside. But I know it won't definitely make my mind off the problem. For I will keep on coming back through it. Over and over again. And that's the cause of being so alone.

One day, you'll know how it feel like to be so alone. There's no one you can talk to and there's no one whom you are sure to listen to you. :(

I DON'T LIKE MY LIFE RIGHT NOW. It's not that I'm not contented. It's just that I don't like it at all. I am faced with these and that because I HAVE TO. I SHOULD. I HAVE TO be here. Even if I don't want to. I am faced with things that I never thought I would. I never imagined life could be so bitter. But then, here I am. Feeling the bitterness and sometimes the loveliness of life.

It's true. Life is bittersweet. Sometimes it's sweet but most of the time, it could be bitter and kill you like hell.

So please...

Can anybody wake me up from this misery?

♥Wis

Saturday, October 07, 2006

I was not able to blog for the past few days kasi SOBRANG naging busy ako. SOBRA lang talaga. I have been busy with school and my other activities outside school. Ha. So ayun..

I have a lot of things to share but unfortunately, I can't tell ALL of it. One by one. And I really don't feel the need to share every detail of those things. Haha.

So, here are my random thoughts. *Wink, wink. *Hint, hint.

October 6, it was Mik's birthday. I feel bad kasi hindi ko siya nabati. Pero I hope she understands. And I want her to know na hindi ko nakalimutan. Mik, hindi ko nakalimutan ha. Busy lang talaga. Sorry...

Three days. Three long days and it'll be my birthday already. To be honest, hindi ko feel ang birthday ko this year. Kasi parang.. nothing extraordinaire. Not to mention, wala ang mga pinaka-close sken na tao. Hmf.

Bo-ho.

Daym. Ateneo lost against Uste during the seniors UAAP basketball game. (I knew that because of Gelo. Haha. Thanks pala sa infos.) Yepyep. ADMU lost. BUT according to Gelo, both of them played really well. So mabuti naman db. Hindi sila natalo because they let it slip, meaning yung tambak. So goody good na rin. Pero still. It might have been better if ADMU won. Ha. I am always for ADMU. :)

Enough about that game already.

Tonight.
.. is the night. :)

Well, yeah. You heard me right. Tonight is the BIG night for Rus. Yihee. I hope everything will turn out so good for her and her date. Suhweet! :D

Speaking of homecoming..

My OWN homecoming dance will be on the 4th of November.

Less than one month, and still no prospect for a date. Actually, I might go AND not have a date. Pwede rin yun. I have my friends, we could do "group date". Haha. Might be that way. Or shall I say, most likely it'll be that way. :D

Cha and Allen are so over each other. Ha. Rejoice. That's a GOOD thing. SUPER good.

SHOUTouts

Dang: I love you too. :)

Michi: Okay lang no. Kamusta naman pala ang araw nung anniv ng Chicklets? Meron bang extraordinary na nangyari or parang ordinary day lang?

Rus: Oo, makapal mukha mo. In a way na.. hindi ka nahihiya to say what you really want. Not in a bad way. And mali ka no. Hindi ko kaya yun. Wala akong power to do that. Haha. Mahiyain ako e. Dun tayo nagkaiba.

Isay: I miss and I love you too. :) SOBRA.

Cza: Wala nga akong prospect na gusto ko maging date for homecoming dance e. Yung actual na pagtatanong pa kaya? Haha. Miss na miss na rin kita no. SOBRA na eto. Oo nga e. Wala na akong matatanggap na gifts. Swerte niyo. Makaka-save na kayo ng money kasi nawala na ako. Minus na sa mga bibigyan niyo ng regalo pag merong special occassion. Haha. Pero wag ka. Pagbalik ko, babawiin ko un. Haha. Teka, teka. Bakit? Di na ba masaya ngayong wala na ako? Grabe. Iba na talaga pag special. Ahem, ahem. Haha. Miss na miss ko na ang ka-sweetan at ka-cornihan mo Cza. Haha. I love you. :)

Eirene: Haha. Oo ngae. Iba na pag sikat gaya mo. Namimiss na ng mga taong kagaya ko. :D Kaya mag-iingat ka rin palagi iha ha. Bibihira nlang ang mga nilalang na gaya nateng dalawa. Haha. :)

Paola: Save the best for last. O ha? :D Loka ka talaga. Buti hanggang ngayon, di ka pa rin nahuhuli ni Sr Iris. Haha. Kung hindi, LAGOT. Haha. Talaga? Kasama mo si Caris nung nagtag ka sken? WOW. Miss ko na rin kayong dalawa ano. Miss na miss pa nga e. Love you lots. :) Ikaw rin, Caris. I love you lots. :)

♥Wis