Let LIVE thy happy LIFE. :D
I was able to chat with a lot of people last wednesday. Sobrang dami. Nalilito na ako sa i-oopen kong window. Kaya sorry sa mga naka-chat ko na medyo matagal ang mga reply ko ng mga oras na un. Bawi ako sa inyo next time. Lalo na sau, Cza.. super sorry....
My volleyball class last night wasn't good. NOT AT ALL. It's because of the stupid-brat Jeffrey. I don't really like him. He is this so proud and stubborn middle-aged blonde man. He pisses me off. Not only me but ALL of my other "classmates". HE WALKED OUT OF OUR CLASS WHILE WE WERE STILL PLAYING THE GAME. How insensitive is that. Hindi man lang niya inisip ung naramdaman ng coach namin. All of us was like... "What the HELL was that al ABOUT?" That's what all of us were left to say.
Enough about that.. change topic. :D
Want to know something? I really am NOT INTO poetry. It isn't even appealing nor fun for me. That is what I would tell myself. I survived my grade school english classes from passing TERRIBLE different forms of poetry. THAT WAS THEN. NOW, It is WAY DIFFERENT. I like poetry. I may not seem to be the goody, goody one who will make the best poems.. but yeah, I LIKE MAKING POEMS. That started about 5 months ago. Out of nowhere. True. OUT OF NOWHERE. I was texting someone and I was too mad and I was texting ALL i want to say. Then I checked my sent items and woaaaah. It is sort of a poem. Then, that's it. From then, I would make it a point that I make poems.. A LOT of it. Yeah, I would say that. Even Ate Charl, know that. Saken pa siya nagpagawa ng poem para sa project niya before.
Speaking of poetry, the other night.. I got inspired and got a pen and a yellow pad and started writing and writing. From time to time, I would cross out words/lines/phrases. If I am NOT contented with it, I would crumple it and throw it straight to the garbage bin. So by that night, less than an hour.. I was able to make TWO poems. I am really really not good at making one, but I did have fun from making these. So I hope YOU would LIKE it YOURSELF. ;)
my first poem. chances are for real. :D
eversince we started going out,
i felt something deep inside
not was it just ordinary
it was something i couldn't explain
and i somehow know that is is for real.
from that moment on,
i could not stop thinking of you,
of how many what ifs
which led me to the decision
of confronting you with what i feel.
and so with all the courage,
i took the chance,
the chance that i would never ever regret
which also turned out to be something beautiful and big.
it is all in the matter of taking chances.
from taking chances,
come bigger responsibilities
and new lessons to learn from
which molded us and made us even stronger
stronger in every single way.
from that chance.. came something more beautiful.. us. ;)
my second poem.the way you make me feel. :D
i love the way you smile
and the way you do your hair.
i love the way you make me laugh
from your jokes come a good and big grin.
i love it when you make time for me
to make me feel even more satisfied.
i just love everything about you
and everything you are all about. ;)
i hate you when your TOO busy,
i hate it when you don't call me
after a fight - big or small
i hate it even more when you choose bball over me.
i hate it when i feel like i am losing you
which even hurts if it's because of a girl
i hate it when you make me feel unimportant,
unwanted and useless.
although, you see..
there is really nothing to hate you.
not a thing.
nothing at all.
nothing.
i love the way you like and love me
i love you and will always be
i love the way you make me feel
from the very second,
you have loved me. ;)
the way you make me feel..
something so real,
so beautiful and enchanting.
i love the way you make me feel..
something so special,
and i know IS uncomparable.
and those two are what i love the best..
the whole package of you. ;)
So those are the two poems which I have been able to write. :) It is NOT that good I know, but it's okay for me though might be terrible for you. Haha. I know. :D But hey, I am still not a professional poet. I am still left with a lot and long years to prove myself to become one. :)
Tommorow, we will go to Rehoboth. It is a nice beach in Delaware. We will spend the weekend there with ate's friend, Ate Jonah. Excited na ako. Whooooohooo! ;) Who knows I might be able to write a poem with a subject related to the beach. Hmmm.. We'll see. ;)
August 15, it will be the start of practices for our school's volleyball practice. From that practice, they will choose those who are IN for VOLLEYBALL VARSITY and for those who are IN for JUNIOR VARSITY. The difference is that.. the VARSITY itself will be the ones who will play for the inter-school and inter-state competitions. The JUNIOR VARSITY is the ones who will be substituting people from THE VARSITY who will not be able to play because of.. i don't know.. whatever.
August 26, ate will go back to the Philippines. She will fix her Australian visa because she will leave for Australia to study there for maybe a year or two.. Exchange student siya e. But she is hoping she could also get the scholarship program in India. Actually, she prefers India than Australia. Kayang kaya niya un. :D
13 days AFTER the start of the practice for the volleyball varsities OR shall we say, August 28.. it will be my FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL. Gumudluck nlang talaga sken. Hopefully, I will have good friends by then. Para naman maka-relax na ako sa pagpasok ko, kahit papaano.
Okay, okay. Alam kong madami akong nasasabihan na gusto ko ng mamatay.. pero sa totoo lang.. TAKOT AKONG MAMATAY no. Kasi.. hindi ko alam. Naalala ko pa ung mga times na nasusugod ako sa ospital tas sinasabe nila IN DANGER daw ako. Nagpapanic na ako. Lalo na ung time na muntikan na akong magka-dengue. Tas panick attack na si papa. Grabe. Nung papunta kami sa ospital, sa car.. Umiiyak na ako. Kasi iniisip ko.. "What if.. eto na ung last time kong makikita lahat ng to". Tas mga kapatid ko and mga pinsan ko.. natatakot din. Bastaaa. Graaaabe. Hindi pa talaga ako ready mamatay. Un ung totoo.
I am loving this new positive thinking about things, about my life. Almost about everything. It makes me worry less and makes me even happier, lighter and less hassled person. ;) Hindi na ako nagpapanick and hindi ko na iniisip ung negative thngs na pwedeng mangyari sken. POSITIVE THINGS FIRST. ;) :D
"Too many walls have been shattered between us. If you refuse to give in, I refuse to give up."